I was on such a high after finishing the Eastern Sierra Fall Century with my friend Kurt early September, but as it turned out, the High was short lived. Not too long after our return we noticed some skin discoloration on Sue’s feet, dark purplish spots, particularly at her right heel, where one of those spots was the size of a silver dollar.
Our primary care physician (who we love and have known for over 20 years), referred Sue to a dermatologist and a vascular specialist. The dermatologist was first, and proceeded to take two biopsies, from the heel and the foot sole. You see, Sue is a diabetic, and her diabetes is strictly managed with careful diet, and she is monitored quarterly and has maintained excellent levels for years. But whenever you put something unusual going on in feet and diabetes it is not a good combination.
In her case the two biopsy sites have a terrible time of healing, and in the meantime we have learned that all of this is vascular circulation (or the absence of it), and there is not enough oxygen getting to the feet. Vascular surgery is next, however that will have to wait until the biopsy sites are fully healed. The biopsies also hit a nerve, which continues to shoot searing pain through her foot in random intervals. It also does not help with her spinal stenosis, because of the uneven distribution of her weight onto one leg (hell, she is not a big woman, and when soaking wet perhaps 107 pounds).
It is so difficult when all you can do is watch and support, but essential you are useless in preventing pain. I have had my share of very bad accidents in my life, and I know pain, and I can deal with it. Watching a loved one in constant pain is something different entirely. Of course, after weeks of this there comes the mental fatigue. I think we have done a good job thus far keeping the sanity in check, but stress levels are super high.
I haven’t gotten much riding in lately as my day pretty much starts at 6am and ends at 9pm. There is time here and there for 45 minutes, but really not enough to suit up and get out. I ordered a trainer (which is now on backorder indefinitely) – so when/if it ever arrives, it will help.
I finally got a good ride in today with Kurt, not very long, about 3 hours for 40 miles and 2300 feet climbing. I feel so much better for the first time in a long time. Now, if I only could give that feeling to my wife……